Confound these ponies they drive me to hallucinate
Journal Entry: Tue Jan 31, 2012, 1:18 PM
Ok, this was so weird that I just couldn't help but to share this.
Last night I kind of slepped too well to the point that I had multiple dreams.
At the very end my last dream was me opening my eyes to see myself still in my bed at midnight trying to get to sleep, I sighed, THEN I realized something odd with my voice, it was way WAY more high pitched than usual, then I noticed something on my pillow, it looked like a flown-pink mane.
confused I lifted and reached my hand out to touch it, only to notice that it was a yellow whoove
Shocked I was I tried to let out a scream that came out extremely weak and quiet.
It was then that I actually woke up to my dad nudging my shoulder, telling to get ready for work.
Still in my covers I sat up and looked down to see I still had yellow whooves until I blinked.
I said to myself "What.... the... F*#$... Is wrong with me!?"
Fluttershy: You'll be mine.... MINE!
Last night I kind of slepped too well to the point that I had multiple dreams.
At the very end my last dream was me opening my eyes to see myself still in my bed at midnight trying to get to sleep, I sighed, THEN I realized something odd with my voice, it was way WAY more high pitched than usual, then I noticed something on my pillow, it looked like a flown-pink mane.
confused I lifted and reached my hand out to touch it, only to notice that it was a yellow whoove
Shocked I was I tried to let out a scream that came out extremely weak and quiet.
It was then that I actually woke up to my dad nudging my shoulder, telling to get ready for work.
Still in my covers I sat up and looked down to see I still had yellow whooves until I blinked.
I said to myself "What.... the... F*#$... Is wrong with me!?"
Merry Christmas
Journal Entry: Thu Dec 22, 2011, 3:35 PM
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Mood:
Jolly
Merry (early) Christmas everyone and everypony from me
www.youtube.com/watch?v=fogLna…
and may the fire of friendship burn in our hearts forever until the end
www.youtube.com/watch?v=fogLna…
and may the fire of friendship burn in our hearts forever until the end
Announcement
Journal Entry: Sun Nov 6, 2011, 12:36 PM
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Mood:
Excited
This here is a project that we are working on and anyone with 3D work, scripting, building or any talent with modding in amnesia please help us out..... or if you're just interested. ^.=.^ www.youtube.com/watch?v=0KkQJO…
Dragon-V0942's 19th Birthday ^.=.^
Journal Entry: Mon Oct 24, 2011, 6:27 AM
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Mood:
Excited
My Little Pony: friendship isssSSSSssss.....
Journal Entry: Tue Sep 13, 2011, 9:59 AM
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Mood:
Excited
City of shadows
Journal Entry: Sun Jul 31, 2011, 2:27 AM
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Mood:
Excited
The first episode of City Of Shadows has at last came out and it really deserves your attention.
I would be really happy if those who read this could spare some time to go watch the first episode here www.youtube.com/watch?v=P2VlzG…
Thank you everybody and be sure to check out the outtakes after watching it. ^.=.^
In other random news: I seriously need a new ID pic, and when I get one, you'll see why
I would be really happy if those who read this could spare some time to go watch the first episode here www.youtube.com/watch?v=P2VlzG…
Thank you everybody and be sure to check out the outtakes after watching it. ^.=.^
In other random news: I seriously need a new ID pic, and when I get one, you'll see why
Amnesia: Audio Replacement Test
Journal Entry: Fri Apr 29, 2011, 6:18 PM
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Mood:
Excited
I seriously would LOVE feedback on this Test, everything else will be mentioned in the video itself at the beginning.
Please click this www.youtube.com/watch?v=uwob9D… and give me feedback by commenting on it or here on DA.
Thank you everybody.
Please click this www.youtube.com/watch?v=uwob9D… and give me feedback by commenting on it or here on DA.
Thank you everybody.
Contest Ended
Journal Entry: Wed Apr 20, 2011, 6:49 PM
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Mood:
Excited
CONTEST: Mathew X Brooke linkd icons
Journal Entry: Sat Mar 19, 2011, 4:59 AM
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Mood:
Excited
Ok.
so me and
were planning on hosting a contest for people to make their own linkd animated icons for us.
Also I've been wanting to spend my points on something but didn't know what, so I decided to use it for this.
Whoever who can make the best animated linkd icons for me and Brooke shall receive
250
If you want to enter and if you have an idea but not sure if I'd like it or something feel free to ask me. ^.=.^
The deadline will be the 19th of April.
Have fun and good luck everybody.
so me and
Also I've been wanting to spend my points on something but didn't know what, so I decided to use it for this.
Whoever who can make the best animated linkd icons for me and Brooke shall receive
If you want to enter and if you have an idea but not sure if I'd like it or something feel free to ask me. ^.=.^
The deadline will be the 19th of April.
Have fun and good luck everybody.
Voice acting Feedback
Journal Entry: Tue Mar 8, 2011, 7:12 PM
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Mood:
Tired - Listening to: Suicide Commando - Conspiracy With The Devil
Those of you who watch me on YouTube and those who don't I would like to hear some feedback on two videos I made.
One I recorded while playing this game for the first time, capturing my favorite part in the game. www.youtube.com/watch?v=ylG9iy…
The other I voiced in response to the comments on the previous video. www.youtube.com/watch?v=Ega3ys…
I would like to hear feedback on those two videos, which one was better and why and how is it better.
You don't have to go into much detail but it would be really appreciated if you did.
Thank you for reading this
PS: although it seems like I never respond to comments just know this, I do read every single one of them.
One I recorded while playing this game for the first time, capturing my favorite part in the game. www.youtube.com/watch?v=ylG9iy…
The other I voiced in response to the comments on the previous video. www.youtube.com/watch?v=Ega3ys…
I would like to hear feedback on those two videos, which one was better and why and how is it better.
You don't have to go into much detail but it would be really appreciated if you did.
Thank you for reading this
PS: although it seems like I never respond to comments just know this, I do read every single one of them.
Mathew-X-Brooke group
Journal Entry: Sun Mar 6, 2011, 6:02 PM
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Mood:
Excited
It would mean the world to both me and her if anyone who cares about either of us submit their gifts for both me and my love OR just one of us to this group or at least watch/join it.
Thank you everybody for supporting me, if it weren't for you guys I would never have moved on.
Thank you everybody.
New video?
Journal Entry: Sun Feb 6, 2011, 1:50 AM
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Mood:
Excited
Well then good news! I have finally posted up a new video, please watch it and enjoy it www.youtube.com/watch?v=jblG2v… 
It needs to end
Journal Entry: Tue Jan 25, 2011, 10:12 PM
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Mood:
Lonely
First I wish to ask everybody to stop commenting and reminding me about what has happened because it is not helping me, it is doing nothing but making the pain inside me I have already even worse, so stop commenting about this whole breakup thing and don't even comment to apologize about that either otherwise you have a 90% to 10% chance of being blocked by me, I'm sorry for being a jerk but I guess that's what I've become because of this and the continuous comments.
Please... It must end NOW!
Hopefully if I keep up with what I'm doing I'll have that new episode of NM2 out and after that I have to figure out how to continue DS without Blue, one of my friends suggested that someone else could play as her and I think that would be a decent enough idea.
I'm getting close to leaving DA to move on to FA where I can be with more people that are more like me in a way, plus I will be a nobody again at last and I won't have to deal with this constant "don't give up I'm pretty sure you'll get back together with her" LOOK! It's over! I have to move on just like she has, she's a strong girl and I will remember her but I need to forget about her for the time being to make this pain easier for me to bear with until I have someone else to cuddle up with and close my eyes and drift off to sleep with by my side.
For now all I can do in my life is work, play some games, look for something to do on Second Life while waiting for more talented animators or artists to hopefully ask me to do voice acting for them.
Once again... Please... Don't talk about it anymore... I want this to be forgotten... At least... I want to forget it... Just for now anyway... It's all I ask.
Please... It must end NOW!
Hopefully if I keep up with what I'm doing I'll have that new episode of NM2 out and after that I have to figure out how to continue DS without Blue, one of my friends suggested that someone else could play as her and I think that would be a decent enough idea.
I'm getting close to leaving DA to move on to FA where I can be with more people that are more like me in a way, plus I will be a nobody again at last and I won't have to deal with this constant "don't give up I'm pretty sure you'll get back together with her" LOOK! It's over! I have to move on just like she has, she's a strong girl and I will remember her but I need to forget about her for the time being to make this pain easier for me to bear with until I have someone else to cuddle up with and close my eyes and drift off to sleep with by my side.
For now all I can do in my life is work, play some games, look for something to do on Second Life while waiting for more talented animators or artists to hopefully ask me to do voice acting for them.
Once again... Please... Don't talk about it anymore... I want this to be forgotten... At least... I want to forget it... Just for now anyway... It's all I ask.
Why can't I move on? T_T
Journal Entry: Wed Dec 8, 2010, 2:36 PM
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Mood:
Hopeless
If you're one of those people that are upset about what happened between me and
than I strongly suggest that you do not read this journal since it's about that.
Seriously, I thought I'd be feeling better by now, but I've realized so many things that just make me cry myself to sleep almost every night I think about it.
I've not been acting like myself lately, I've been frustrated and upset for a very long while now.
I literally just don't know what to do with my life anymore, I've been trying to move on and I just don't know anyone or have any confidence in me that I would find someone just as sweet, gentle, gorgeous, lovely, talented and beautiful like
she was literally everything to me and the reason why I continued living and now that I am no longer with her I don't know what to do.
The fact that I barely get any feedback at all anymore now because of that doesn't help me either, it has made me believe that the real reason why I've ever gotten any attention or feedback/encouragement of any sort was all just because of our relationship and I bet that now that I've mentioned this people may try to prove me wrong.
This is also one of the reasons I've been really inactive lately on both DA and YT, I just don't have the motivation any more.
I've also been disappointed at my own actions because of this event, I look at my own life and think of how many girls I possibly know and realize that there aren't any that I would be interested or would be interested in me let alone be happy with, this is cruel to say but it's true, I actually wish my words about Blue being unique and different weren't true because now I don't have her to love with all my heart anymore and now I don't have anyone at all.
I'm angry and furious at myself for immediately looking around for a girl to date and love almost straight after the breakup, I can't believe how desperate I am to find someone to love just like I loved her... I'm just desperate to have someone to love now more than I've ever been.
I really wish there was still something I could do to be with her, but if I just try to ask her to love me again all I'll do is just hurt her more than I already have and I can't bear to do that to her.
I would happily leave my life behind to be with her but there's no way I would survive in that country, this is why I needed HER to be able to come over here to be with me, she would have been in a better place and I would have loved her and took care of her with all my heart... But she wouldn't be able to cope being away from both her home and her parents which I can understand... I just wish that.. Somehow.. We could be together... Just once.
So now that we're no longer together I don't know what to do with all the money I saved for that special trip for her and I don't know what else to do with my life, right now all I can do is just sit my ass on this computer seat playing video games hoping that my life will go away quickly.
I know submitting a journal like this is not wise but I just don't know what else to do with my life now.
I still love her... and I don't think that will ever change... she was everything... and she always will be.... I still love you Blue
Seriously, I thought I'd be feeling better by now, but I've realized so many things that just make me cry myself to sleep almost every night I think about it.
I've not been acting like myself lately, I've been frustrated and upset for a very long while now.
I literally just don't know what to do with my life anymore, I've been trying to move on and I just don't know anyone or have any confidence in me that I would find someone just as sweet, gentle, gorgeous, lovely, talented and beautiful like
The fact that I barely get any feedback at all anymore now because of that doesn't help me either, it has made me believe that the real reason why I've ever gotten any attention or feedback/encouragement of any sort was all just because of our relationship and I bet that now that I've mentioned this people may try to prove me wrong.
This is also one of the reasons I've been really inactive lately on both DA and YT, I just don't have the motivation any more.
I've also been disappointed at my own actions because of this event, I look at my own life and think of how many girls I possibly know and realize that there aren't any that I would be interested or would be interested in me let alone be happy with, this is cruel to say but it's true, I actually wish my words about Blue being unique and different weren't true because now I don't have her to love with all my heart anymore and now I don't have anyone at all.
I'm angry and furious at myself for immediately looking around for a girl to date and love almost straight after the breakup, I can't believe how desperate I am to find someone to love just like I loved her... I'm just desperate to have someone to love now more than I've ever been.
I really wish there was still something I could do to be with her, but if I just try to ask her to love me again all I'll do is just hurt her more than I already have and I can't bear to do that to her.
I would happily leave my life behind to be with her but there's no way I would survive in that country, this is why I needed HER to be able to come over here to be with me, she would have been in a better place and I would have loved her and took care of her with all my heart... But she wouldn't be able to cope being away from both her home and her parents which I can understand... I just wish that.. Somehow.. We could be together... Just once.
So now that we're no longer together I don't know what to do with all the money I saved for that special trip for her and I don't know what else to do with my life, right now all I can do is just sit my ass on this computer seat playing video games hoping that my life will go away quickly.
I know submitting a journal like this is not wise but I just don't know what else to do with my life now.
I still love her... and I don't think that will ever change... she was everything... and she always will be.... I still love you Blue
The truth behind the Ultimate Dare
Journal Entry: Mon Nov 29, 2010, 6:58 PM
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Mood:
Humor
It was a trick, anyone who won the dare is a boring person to me and those who lost the dare are the best type of people I would love to be friends with. ^.=.^ Thank you for participating in my dare.
PS: Nightmare House 2 part 3 coming out soon.
PS: Nightmare House 2 part 3 coming out soon.
Ultimate Dare
Journal Entry: Wed Nov 24, 2010, 11:49 PM
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Mood:
Enjoying The Show
I dare anyone who reads this journal to watch this video and try not to laugh until the end of the video www.youtube.com/watch?v=NQ2fha…
It's OK
Journal Entry: Wed Nov 3, 2010, 6:19 PM
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Mood:
Hopeless
Yes most of you have figured out what has happened, Me and
have broken up.
I'm sorry about my comments I kept leaving earlier, but everything is OK now.
Me and Blue will still be friends and I'll always be there to voice act and help her whenever she needs me.
And for those of you who were finishing up BlueXMat fanart's don't feel afraid to finish them, they will be great things to come back to look at for both me and her.
And to answer the question of why we broke up was just simply because we're too far from each other, our love was strong and as she said it's not enough and that's true, she wouldn't be able to cope being away from both her home and her country.
So please... don't be upset, I'm feeling a little better now... but I'll never forget her.
Thank you everyone for the support you gave me and Blue, we shall never forget it.
I'm sorry about my comments I kept leaving earlier, but everything is OK now.
Me and Blue will still be friends and I'll always be there to voice act and help her whenever she needs me.
And for those of you who were finishing up BlueXMat fanart's don't feel afraid to finish them, they will be great things to come back to look at for both me and her.
And to answer the question of why we broke up was just simply because we're too far from each other, our love was strong and as she said it's not enough and that's true, she wouldn't be able to cope being away from both her home and her country.
So please... don't be upset, I'm feeling a little better now... but I'll never forget her.
Thank you everyone for the support you gave me and Blue, we shall never forget it.
My voice acting
Journal Entry: Wed Oct 27, 2010, 11:20 PM
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Mood:
Passionate - Listening to: Beat It - Fall Out Boy
As those of you who have watched me may know I've posted up a poll for the heck of it since I've been really in active lately.
For those of you who want to hear more of my acting before voting go to my channel www.youtube.com/user/dragonv09… and look in the playlist that should show up on the right called "videos I'm in" and when you're ready to vote go here dragon-v0942.deviantart.com/jo…
Today's featured FanArt:

For those of you who want to hear more of my acting before voting go to my channel www.youtube.com/user/dragonv09… and look in the playlist that should show up on the right called "videos I'm in" and when you're ready to vote go here dragon-v0942.deviantart.com/jo…
Today's featured FanArt:

The Girlfriend Meme (FurAffinity)
Journal Entry: Tue Oct 12, 2010, 5:25 AM
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Mood:
Passionate - Drinking: Pepsi MAX
Thought I'd Post a link here in case if you guys wanted to see something new from me.
---->www.furaffinity.net/journal/17…<----
---->www.furaffinity.net/journal/17…<----
Sexy Partner Meme
Journal Entry: Tue Sep 28, 2010, 2:40 AM
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Mood:
Passionate - Drinking: Pepsi MAX
this journal may not be appropriate for all viewers, you have been warned, any negative comments will be hidden
I needed a new journal and I decided to have a go at something new, a perverted MEME as you may have noticed from the title, I shall tag certain people and they have the option to have a go at it or not, everyone else is more than welcome to join in if they wish.
Here are my answers, enjoy...
1. First tell us your partner:
she is a sweet normal looking girl with a unique personality on the inside, through everyone else's eyes she seems like a normal girl who is just like all others, through my eyes though she is someone to be loved forever, she is fun, funny, her personality makes me love everything about her and I shall do whatever I can to save up the money for her flight here to Australia so we can meet face to face for the first time in our lives.
2. Aww, whats your favourite thing about your partner:
her voice is one of them, it's just so sweet and gentle sounding, another thing is her age, I don't know why but I just love the fact that she's older than me, I also love all of her talents.
3. What is one song that reminds you of her?:
Nickelback-Gotta Be Somebody www.youtube.com/watch?v=AQadIc…
4. ...Hehe, okay, if you were to do one thing with him/her now, what would it be?:
I would really love to lie down or sit down on a couch with her and watch a movie, if it were to be a funny movie I would pick "El dorado the city of gold" Or if I were to pick a scary movie I'd pick "Saw (any episode)" Or "Doom the movie" if it was my choice to pick a movie that is.
5. o3o really? okay then... now lets get a little bit more personal coz we all are a bit perverted >3< If you were alone in your house and you got to choose one sexy or dress-up type thing for your partner to wear just for you, what would it be?:
6. o///o...nice XD if your partner is a girl, do you prefer the boobs, or the butt?... and if your partners a guy... well... you know what you would choose for them
7. SAME! I think XD um, okay truthfully what is your favourite dream of him/her? and be as sexy as you like
8. O3O Wow... *clears throat* ITS MAKIN' BABIES TIME! wheres the place you'd wanna do it most?
9. ...weirdo XD JKJK okay and finally... whats your biggest fantasy of your partner? COME ON SPILL THE BEANS!
10. Okay now what's your favorite position!
11. What turns you on the most?:
her cute laugh and... ummm... When I see her body and face on webcam (NO not naked, just seeing her) I don't know why but just seeing her turns me on so easily, I guess it just reminds me how lucky I am to have a wonderful and.... OK I'll say it "SEXY" girl like her... Happy now?
NOW TAG SOME PEOPLE:
All people I tag have the option of participating or not.
And everyone may participate if they wish.









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