Isolation

Here I stand alone hoping that I won't choose to be on my own.

I love and think about my friends but there are things that I just cannot bend.

My life and feelings are bent out of shape I just hope that eventually I'll get it all back in top shape.

For now I refuse to follow the broken road with a broken heart, but I just hope eventually I'll break the chains that bind me to this shame.

I try to fight back and destroy this sorrow but love is not the thing that I can just borrow.

If I meet the one I will not run.

things I compare are also things that I cannot bear.

When rain falls my tears also fall.

Because I feel like I've betrayed everyone and no longer feel like I behave like everyone.

I feel like things will never be the same again but I must hope that things can become happy again.

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I feel like I've lost more than just the one I've loved... But friends as well... Some friends that I'll miss.

Just like my character in this picture, I currently do not know if I should cry or close my eyes, everything around me that was once amazing to me is now nothing without someone to love with my heart.

I am aware that it's best to wait and enjoy being alone but there's nothing for me to enjoy if im alone especially now that I've realized that I've always been alone, over here and I was in love with someone who wasn't really hear as I imagined her to be, and just thinking about that fact made me cry for hours knowing that I've been spending only time thinking about her hoping that all my time I spent alone on my computer talking or thinking about her would soon be in the past, but now that we have broken up and I still love her I still can't help but cry about the fact that I've always been alone.

People tell me again and again to go outside but I just can't, I can't bear the feeling of someone looking at me as if I'm from America and you'd think that I would be able to put on a good act to be able to sound like im from Australia but when I attempt to it just sounds pure fake and it has made me give up entirely.

I choose to talk online because I wish to know someone who might be the one I love online first, it makes it easier for the two of us to know our personality and love each other because of how we think and feel and talk to the point where we would love the way we look because we know that the personality that we love belongs to that body and that's why I loved Blue, she looked like an average decent looking girl that may not be fit but the fact that she had such a unique and wonderful personality just made that body seen so special and I just hope that someone out there that I will meet will think the same thing for me as I shall for her.

There's also a certain friend that I worry about since I believe that I have hurt that person's feelings and hope that I can sort out the problem.

I also think this, if I do find a new girlfriend and somehow is just as good as Blue was I wonder if people will do fanart of us just like they did for me and Blue, right now I doubt that because of the sudden pause of fanart since they were only about me and her, I thought I had lots of people who would support me and her no matter what but it turns out that they only did it because of Blue, if we're not together then all they will draw is her but completely forget about me, I can see the reasons why but I do wish that I had at least more loyal followers then I currently have right now.

Thank you everyone though for helping me keep my hopes up, I sure hope that things will be happy again for both me and her and everyone out there who cares.